Thursday, September 16, 2010

It's All About Perception

When dealing with any type of crisis or loss the human mind typically follows 5 steps: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance.  In the past few weeks there have been a number of very stressful events in my life.  My first response to each of these has been...is this really my life???  Since then, I've begun to work the phases of the process.  For the most part, I'm in a pretty good place of acceptance.  That's not to say I don't slip back into some of the other phases, but I'm trying really hard to accept what's in front of me and work with it.

Today as I switched around my many hats I spent some time contemplating why all of these things had snowballed into my life.  I was really starting to think that I might just be a train wreck.  Instead, I'm changing my perception.  My life isn't a train wreck, it's just a process of making me a very well-rounded individual.  I mean that in more than just reference to my ever rounding shape.  There's a reason I need to learn all of these things.  There's a reason I need to have 3 children (2 who will likely only be 12 months apart).  There's a reason I need to understand the juvenile justice system.  There's a reason I need to know about bail bonds and the criminal justice system. There's a reason I need to learn about grief with others.  There's a reason I need to learn to help others organize their lives and find peace and serenity.  There's a reason I am mentoring a difficult student teacher.

I just really wish I knew what the reasons were...

2 comments:

JPK said...

I really need to work on my perception of things. You are definitely on the right track. Thanks for the post!

tahna said...

Changing perception on things is difficult at times, but it sounds like you are doing well at it. I think in time reasons for things reveal themselves. You are doing great though!