Tuesday, September 7, 2010

At 15

Heavenly Father is ingenious...and yet terribly frustrating.  This free agency thing makes life so difficult sometimes, especially when it means that others can make choices that are completely out of our control.  My younger brother has not used his free agency wisely in the past few years and it has ultimately left him in a very unfortunate place.  I've spent a lot of time in the past week recalling what it was like to be 15.  Sure, it's been a while, but it doesn't seem so far off.  I find it very puzzling that 2 related individuals can choose such polar paths. 

When I was 15:
  1. I joined The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
  2. I began dating seriously
  3. I worried about having friends and fitting in
  4. I shopped
  5. I played volleyball
  6. I got my first job as a hostess at the Country Club
  7. I prayed for my parents
  8. I became a sister for the second time
  9. I got my driver's permit
  10. I made commitments to myself to live my life in accordance with certain standards
Again, however, Heavenly Father has an ingenious plan.  Along with free agency to make poor choices, he allows forgiveness and blesses us with opportunities to change our path.  I sincerely pray that my younger brother makes some better choices now that his options are so limited and he sincerely seeks another path.  He has realized what he's done and where it's placed him.  He has found prayer.  He has found humility.  Hopefully these things will stick.

If you are a prayerful person, please pray for him to be humble.  Pray his DAP placement will come quickly and that he will find an inner strength and peace.  Please pray for my mom as she endures all this emotional pain.


JPK said...

Your family continues to be in my prayers. My heart aches as this situations hits so close to home. May you and all those invoved have the faith and strength needed during this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

Your family will be in my prayers. It's so hard when the people so close to us struggle. Hang in there! <3

Aunt Tiff said...

we for sure will remember him and your family in our prayers! You are such an amazing person!!

Ms. Shellyz said...

of course, my prayers will be with you and your brother

Katy B. said...

I love you and hope with all my heart that things will work out for you and your family.:)

Marinda said...

Congrats on baby number 3! You are a great mom and you will have 3 lucky kids.